the rest…
It’s not that I have slacked, it’s just that I wanted to compile this .. Really.. Really it’s the truth.
How I have stepped out of my comfort area in life these last two weeks:
I have owned up to something really huge.
I stood up for myself in a situation where I normally would walk away.
I wrote about my son.. and his horrific ordeal of being bullied.
I have contemplated resigning from my position and stepping out in faith.
I have weeded more people out of my life that have caused heartache.
I attended my first counseling appointment and survived it.
I may not write about this – about stepping out of my comfort zone as much as I probably should but I do know this – I am going to continue to challenge myself ..
day 15 : the list
There is a list being compiled . .
By me.
Of my #opeleanor moments.
I have decided to share my list , soon.
I am so so proud to be a part of this. This has opened my heart, my mind and it’s truly helped me see life differently.
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams
Day 14 : toxic
I’m really starting to love this Operation Eleanor - it’s truly shown me that I can be the strong person I know I am, down deep inside. I’m hoping that this will carry on and I will continue to step out of my comfort zone.
I have a person that I am around for the majority of the day that loves the negative – loves the toxicity of poisonous words. Today? I had enough. Today, I spoke up and today that person shut up..
Finally.
Day 13 : the barn
This place ? It allowed me to heal a bit today.
I took my camera out and just snapped away. It was so amazing.. I have never just got in the car and drove. I had no map, no gps, I just let my heart lead.
Today I healed, just a little.,
Day 11 & 12
Days 11 & 12 have been incredibly healing..
I shared something so hidden deep in my heart . I feel better for it.
#that’sall.
Day 10: good enough
The most recent life lesson that I have learned recently is that I am GOOD ENOUGH.
Proving it to you doesn’t matter to me anymore. I am good enough.
I have weeded you out of my world because you have a negative approach to life. I do not want that in my space. Your negativity will not be around me anymore.
You can’t belittle me anymore. I AM good enough.
Your words are venom to me. They are poison and they will not affect me anymore. Your bitterness will not bite at me anymore. Your ability to make any situation in life be ALL about you will not seep into my life. I AM GOOD ENOUGH.
You will never break my heart again.
Ever.
I will say it again – I am good enough.
Day 9: busy is me
Today was a day of busy work– I truly had no stepping out of my comfort zone.
Unless not having coffee counts!
Day 8: emotional skeletons
My entire life I have been the daughter of a parent with severe mental health. Severe.
Today I shared that with a close friend. This? Very big. Outside of my husband and family , I have never shared this. Ever.
It felt so damn good to talk about about my fears and hurt..to get it out!
Day 7 : not so good..
I failed at today’s attempt.
I wanted to go to the cemetery , to Tyler’s area..
It’s been a while, I just have such a hard time being there. It hurts so terribly bad.
Tomorrow I will try again.
Day 6 : stepping out of my bubble
It’s not always a good thing when I start thinking. Trust me.
I have always been a home town girl who has always wanted to stay close to family and stay in the area that I was raised in. Mostly I have done it for myself and children , but I have also kept it close to my heart that I haven’t wanted to hurt our families. Every time we have talked about this , they have voiced their dislike.
Lately I have been wanting to step outside that comfort zone, to take that leap of faith.
I want to put all of our belongings in storage and go.
Right now it’s just a thought. Perhaps it could be a reality. .
Perhaps?
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